Monday, April 12, 2010

Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live in another home. Somewhere with a different life. Perhaps just different enough to where I was a 'domestic engineer' but still had the same family characters like my son, my mom, my sis, my hubby, my dogs, my closest friends. Somewhere where there was perfect sunshine, a touch of a breeze, and just enough shade to hide under when I was concerned about sunburn. Or perhaps this perfect place wouldn't permit burns... That would certainly be a good thing for me and The Little Guy... such freckly things we are.

Sometimes I wonder if a song I've picked for a momentary soundtrack would be a good choice for those of you watching my little movie. Like a fly on the wall. Sometimes I sing in my car as if I have an audience who thinks I sound really good. And I wonder if I sound really, really bad.

Sometimes I just feel like a good cry is in order. Tonight is just such a night. But, I'm holding firm to not give in. Ok, maybe just one tear. Maybe.

Sometimes I wonder. I just wonder about the random things. The fleeting thoughts that touch the corners of my mind and all the in-betweens. I think about what's missing and what's present. What's bright and what's dark. What's gone and what is still to come.
Wondering if I'm just wasting too much time wondering...

Update: Here is a link to a new blog I found and this is an example of seeing someone's pics of a room in their house that makes me wonder what it would be like to live in such a place. Check out her red cabinets! Love them! Hubby & I saw something similar at Ikea and loved how they looked, unfortunately they wouldn't do us any favors in the way of resale value in our current home. Perhaps one day we'll get to experiment with such a kitchen. Another thing I wondered about while looking at this blog is how it would be to make clothes like she does. I adore her vintage style and I can't wait to read more about her Fashion Ration campaign!